Things Fall Apart

A somewhat overrun community garden plot, with a pitchfork stuck in the ground and dill going to seed in the foreground.

A poem for the autumnal equinox

To the news hound
it may seem that the hardest harvest is consequence:
the richly deserved chicken slaughtered on her roost,
the open-pollinated burrs of hypocrisy and insincerity,
the mortar-eating ivy that can’t tear down
the master’s house fast enough.
But it isn’t.
Those harvests deliver themselves, eventually.

Harder is to gather the bounty you don’t deserve—
The last cherry tomatoes, sweet and smiling
improbably suspended over ground already planted
with a season of neighbors whose moment you missed.
The greens that just kept going when you couldn’t, when
distraction, depression, priorities kept you away
until visions of foot-high pigweed and the yellow blood of bean beetles
weighed down the pockets of your dreams.
The love that comes, or returns, when you are at your most unloveable.
The kindness that takes the kindling you split in a regretted fury
and stacks it, then sucks out your splinters.

Take it, this harvest that offers and offers again,
but in the end will quietly walk away.
Do not let it go.
Do not waste harvest time filling your compost
with stinging guilt, pulled without gloves in penance.
Step past it where it grows into autumn
where things are supposed to fall apart
and you are supposed to hold out your arms to catch.
As you sow so you shall reap, perhaps
but harvest is also older than furrowed fields.
Taking the gifts given to you is work enough for this season.
Line your bed with them.
Stuff them into the holes in your shoes.
Paint a stained glass wall of jam jars in your pantry.
Practice thank you without the flush of shame.

If anyone deserves anything it is this:
to be fed
before they decide how to try again.

copyright 2011

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